Men naturally don’t like their girlfriends sleeping with other men, even if it is for pay. Most romantic relationships are based on monogamy and petty jealousness. I fell in love with a girl who had to sleep with other men for money and wished that the relationship would work. Working as an escort made the dating life so unconvincing. If it was not impossible, chances of the relationship with this London model working out were slim.
Initially, I was naïve about these challenges. Since she felt nothing for her clients emotionally, she thought that I would understand her line of work. Sure, she liked her clients but had no sexual attachment with them. Escorting for her London agency(Cleopatra Escorts) was a survival tactic like any other to her.
I could not understand that sex was all about money and nothing more. After her work, she still wanted to come home and be with the man she loved. She wanted to cuddle up with me for no pay and feel real emotions. She wanted to have orgasms that she did not have to fake and to express the authentic excitement about sex. She wanted intimacy.
As a professional companion, she was excellent at making me feel special. She must have been making a lot of money. Her purse and shoes were very expensive. They were gifts from her clients. However, she still considered escorting as just a job like any other, and the gifts she received were extras of her occupation.
No matter how she tried to frame her job, my attitude would immediately change towards him. I would go from being a gentleman to an ill-mannered guy. I think when I realized that she was an escort, I was just sticking around for sex. I closed off to her emotionally, and that was heartbreaking for her. She might have been a mature working girl, but she still had feelings. She still wanted to fall in love.
Considering the number of men she had sex with, my chances of getting some sort of STD were very high. Luckily, I never did, but I could not live with myself, knowing that she was having sex with other men. I had not chosen her line of work. However, she cared for me and was always honest. After some time, I made her quit escorting and become a secretary for a law firm. She was not lucky; we broke up, and she went back to escorting.
After breaking up with her, whenever I needed a new girlfriend, I just scheduled a meeting with a new escort. We were just very different, or because we had met professionally, neither of us entirely respected or trusted the other.
After breaking up, I started getting jealous that she could not quit escorting. I was always telling her how I wanted to make a sincere woman out of her. I wanted her to stop working as an escort and move in with me, but she could not because of my depression and alcoholism. Besides, she felt bitter about my judgment of her. I had met her as a sex worker, and now I was putting down her job.
I was never judgmental about her past; maybe that is because I also used to see escorts before. After breaking up with me, she did not have any relationships. Rather, she became married to her job. She worked all the time and made a lot of money.
Because of my personal experience, I understand that a sex worker is not a depraved human being, and the men who use her services are not either. I am not contemplating that there are no men out there who do not care if their wives or girlfriends work as escorts. Maybe it is provoking for them to be with women who are desired by so many men. Maybe they love the great sex that an escort offers. Or these are the kind of men who are happy watching their wives or girlfriends having sex with another person.
In my case, I was just happy to be with someone who is sexual as this London escort was. However, I was getting jealous that she was sleeping with other men, as this was her line of work. I consider myself lucky to have found her and to be in a relationship that I have always wanted to be in.